For Bill
I burst into fragments
of myself
when you died.
The child that needed a dad
who changed their oil
and kept his promises.
The adult that gained a new
perspective on work
and life
and what it's like to live solidly
with regret.
The model of a partner
that sticks it out
for a presence on the couch,
in hardware stores,
and at our door.
The "retired people" person
if only just beginning
to walk down the path
of becoming.
I entwine our stories
because I don't know what it's like
to love so fiercely
and be loved
without condition,
without placeholder,
or hierarchy.
I close my eyes and see you at Christmas,
terrifically proud,
of your electrical switches,
capable of turning off or on;
your face lit up:
pure joy at having "lost" the gift exchange.
As my eyelids lift,
I hold my palms open
hoping that you have found rest;
the absence of pain;
the presence of peace.
Love,
your daughter, in practice.
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